my dad wants me to go to florida to visit relatives and stay with them for the vacation. i was thinking hmm that would be nice but then i remembered the last time he told me he was gunna send me to florida (a previous lj entry).
You see... i was on the phone with a very very old friend at 2am one night and we were talking about some really private things. things i would never say to anyone else about my life. and guess what? my dad was listening to the conversation. not only is that illegal but hes like u gotta tell ur mom. and im like what? and my brother is like you dont know?
WTF i hate my family now and i need to get out of here befoe i do anything stupid to myself.
in school i dont feel as myself i feel soo fucking lonely. im starting to neglect my school work, i dont eat at all anymore. and im making some really stupid decisions in my life i would really regret. but i have no fucking idea what to do. i wanna die simple as that and no one would really care. yeah put up a tree in my name but who would really know who i am? i dont think anyone knows me.